41,204. My current word count. I have written 41,204 words on my way to my original goal of an 80,000 word first draft. Which means I am about half way (I know, I know, my math skills are astounding).
Half way. Some days that makes me feel accomplished and proud of my efforts. Other days (like today) it feels totally daunting – as in, “Crap! I’m ONLY half way!”
When you’re half way you start to wonder, “Have I used up all my ideas?” or “Will the second half be harder than the first?” This writing thing is a marathon, not a sprint, right? But, I wonder, when running a marathon, are you totally exhausted by mile 13 or is the runner’s high kicking in? Maybe you just want to sit down on the curb and have some snacks?
And, that’s probably why I’m writing this blog post instead of typing word number 41,205. I’m probably a little scared that I won’t be able to finish the race, so I’m sitting down for a snack (aka, a blog post). OK, not probably . . . I am scared . . . shitless (sorry couldn’t come up with another word that felt as apropos).
How many of us have quit something half way? Given up before we’ve reached our goals or seen the results of our efforts? I know I have.
How does one launch herself over the half way hump?
For once, I have no answer, no sage piece of wisdom or encouragement. I’d love to hear your thoughts.
And, until then, I’m going to do what almost every successful writer recommends and “put my butt in the chair.” I may be tired and a little scared, but somewhere deep down inside a little voice is saying, “Put down one word and the next one will follow.”
Plus, unlike the long distance runner, I get to run my marathon while sitting in a chair, with a cup of coffee, and even snacks, if I want them. Lucky me. 🙂